Yeah, I know. I sort of “disappeared”… something I said I wouldn’t do, but I did it. I did post something on my livejournal about taking off, only because my email friends check it and I didn’t want to worry them. To the rest of you, I apologize… but real life comes before any of this. Some unfortunate stuff has come my way and being seven hours away from my family and utterly helpless to do a damn thing about it sort of compounds the agony. I don’t really like to discuss my personal life on here, so suffice it to say… I had to leave. I didn’t have the mental capacity of even the will to bother with any of this.
What about now? Well, that’s the tricky part. You know, when I started this… it was about six years ago. Technically, I’ve been “in” the community for seven years, starting with the original The Sims. I was even here during the beginning of The Sims 2, I just used the same name I had for the original version. Either way, that’s a long ass time! I’ve been playing The Sims since it’s original release date. It’s been a decade… and I haven’t touched the game or had the desire to play it in two months. This is… a sad thing for me, someone who played The Sims right until the very bitter end. I can’t blame it on anything other than change.
What does that mean for everything here? I’m not sure yet. I have every intention of finishing Angel of Lies, that much is for certain. I’m not sure how long it’ll take me, my creative juices involving it have all but flown the coop, but it’ll get done. Don’t worry, it won’t be like one of those horrific ending episodes of a sitcom that was suddenly cancelled. I’m going to keep with my original plan. Angel of Lies will be finished, you have my word on that. Everything else? I don’t know, I hate to say anything until I know for sure. I just don’t know.
Speaking of my creativity and Angel of Lies, this is how you know it’s bad. My characters can’t reach me and I can’t reach them. I’ve been trying for the past week or so, I wanted to try and get things going so I could start working on updates again and then just have them release themselves. Unfortunately, it isn’t happening. The blockage is apparently so bad that its affected my husband. We haven’t discussed Angel of Lies in weeks and yet, the other morning, he woke up after having a dream about Eckhard and Valerie. This has never happened before. He looked at me and said, “that’s it, you need to write – this is getting ridiculous!” I don’t even dream about my own characters, so I was pretty damn amused.
I wish I had better news, but all I can say is keep an eye out. The updates for AoL will come, eventually. Until then, thanks so much for your patience and for the support all these years! It’s been a long haul, hasn’t it? It’s almost hard to believe that when I started all of this, I was still a teenager.
